Source: 9gag

Westerners don't like wet bums

What makes a winner.

A winner is someone who can turn a bad situation, find any advantages and willing to take the blows and survive. A winner can work in stress situations, doesn't blame other but struggles to find a solution and survives.

Adapt, improvise, overcome

Papaaa...

moral of the story: Spare the child... or is it?? :D

Brendan Conlon

Two days ago I watched this movie on Astro. It is called ‘Warrior’. Arrived home at 2330, everyone in the house was sleeping. Heated nasi goreng cooked by Tok Mak and microwaved some mashmallows ibu bought from Jordan. I Was very hungry as I skip dinner that day. Turn on the tv..

‘Warrior’ is a fighting movie, based on the popular combat sport UFC. Played by Tom Hardy from ‘Inception’.  My first impression that it was another ‘Neverbackdown’ flick. But Warrior was more than that. It depicts the struggle of two brothers who disagree with each other and both of them hate their father so much because of their father's past abusive behaviour. The only thing that can bring their family together was in the ring. 

My opinion of 'Neverbackdown' is about a teenager finally finds his cure to overcome his anger towards life. 'Warrior' is about Brendan Conlon’s fight to ensure his family has a home and fight to get his brother and father back. I prefer 'Warrior', because of the main character Brendan Conlon who is not only a great fighter.He is also physics teacher who ensures the his class is exciting. Plus he is loving father and a responsible husband. 

Warrior is an inspiring movie. The character Brendan Conlon’s struggle to overcome the problem he has in his life has lifted my spirits. My favourite quote from this flick is when Frank Campana told Brendan during the scene where Brendan was fighting Tommy. 

‘You don't knock him out, you don't have a home’ 

Must watch this movie.

My new gym motivation. Gonna have Tom Hardy's traps.

Dreams

Mimpi itu indah tetapi hanya kekal mimpi jika kita tidak ber-aksi. Sometimes we tell ourselves that we want to this and be that, we will do this and do that; always wanting to achieve great things. However we fail to follow up our great dreams with greatactions. Sering menunda, always side-tracked, selalu beralasan dan forever scared with the big step.

I too am guilty of this self deception, and I have this additional problem of disliking making a decision by myself, ALWAYS always have to hear a 2nd opinion. Selalu apabila bermimpi aku bersemangat tetapi datangnya masalah keluarga menyekat aku bingung dan lupakan mimpi dan idaman.

Waiting for the day I can work hard, play hard and pray harder. and I don't mind having the day to have actually settled down with a partner for life and partner for business....

Coffeshop of my own, InsyaAllah it will happen. :)

Semak hubungan kita

Chill Lesson

Love how this song would give the impression of a bad-ass song, instead its a song bout talking bout a lot of  life lessons-e.g: tak guna bawak pisau ke peraduan menembak.

Kongsi kongsi mari bicara kongsi pendapat dan juga idea.

Masuk kongsi tiada keluar

Biar kongsi jadi kongsi

Kita duduk diam

#1

Sehijau 

           Warna 

                      Daun

When I was in high school I remember two of my favorite malay literature. I will always remember my bahasa melayu teacher, sad to say that I forgot her name. She was strict, but kind.

My two favorite malay literature was 'Kasut' and 'Diari seorang pengawas'. Both of them are in the anthology 'Sehijau warna daun'.

Push Through The Pain Because Giving Up Hurts More

They say that every morning in Africa, 

a gazelle wakes up, 

he knows he must run faster than the fastest lion or he will be killed. 

Every morning in africa a lion wakes up, 

he knows he must outrun the slowest gazelle or he will starved to death.

It doesn't matter whether you be the lion or the gazelle.

When the sun comes up you better be running

My motivation for jogging. 

Always think that someone who is busier than you is running 

right now.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

Even though the greeting came a little late, nevertheless I would like to say happy birthday for for Runni and Coffee which is on the 29th and the 30th, of May.

And May it remind us that for every year that had past, a lot of lessons were learned. Where a lesson learned is a lesson earned. I would like to mention a quote from Robert Southey; 

'Live as long as you may, for the first twenty years are the longest half of your life'.

So live life at the fullest. Make do of everything you have. Enjoy the up and down thrill of this roller coaster ride and never forget the responsibility as a muslim at the same time.

The last part is where I honestly always forget.

Last but not least, a random birthday greeting. (it made me smile:)

 

past-future

The quote that has the biggest impact in my life. :)

Characteristics of a Single Phase Thyristor Bridge Converter

8 JUNE 2012

Its Friday today, will remind myself that there is a Jumaat prayer this afternoon. It was raining, drizzly rain and windy that day. Having a little headache probably because I had my head exposed to the rain. I was wondering what causes the headache. It is because of the sudden change of temperature. Usually I will wash my hair to avoid getting the headache. It was a tip I learned when I was young from my TokMak. It works on me, I believe there is a scientific explanation for that. 

 During the khutbah, the khatib was talking about munafikun (hypocrasy), and a couple of things I couldn't remember. My mind was in a half conscious state at that time. The khutbah that day is really directed on me. It is as if Allah had purposely make me hear about the topic . Most of the time I talk the talk, but fail to walk the walk. In summary, I lie to myself. 

Except when a gun points at my head, or any similar situations. Desperate situations. That is why now I had my watch was set 30 minutes early. And so far it works when I had appointments.

The last speech from the khutbah is; 

'never let your money, your wife, your children and your busy life distract you from reading the Quran and remembering Allah'.

I think that is all I can remember from the khutbah today. Must bring my notepad and take some notes next week:) 

And today someone's ummi had passed away. I think I know that guy, he was doing his Phd here. His mom had come visiting him from Iraq. Innalillah. Al-fatihah to his mom. The solat jenazah was done at the Stafford prayer hall at the town center. We did the solat ghaib after the Jumaat Friday prayer.

When the time comes, no one can stop it. Same thing goes with opportunity. 

I remember a good friend told me, 'time waits for no men'.  

For What Is Worth

There is saying that goes, " If a job worth doing, it's worth doing well".

One more day left to prepare for the final paper. After the exam all the notes and formulas will be put away and  stored. Someday maybe my juniors might need it for reference.

The 2 hours exam will prove whether the student had benefit the time given for three months to prepare for the questions in the exam. There is only two outcomes, either success or failure. God is fair.

There can only be one.

Use The Floor to Move, Strong Base

The current season in staffs is spring. The weather was warm and nice a few days ago. But now it is starting to get cold like in winter. The house heater was not working and everybody was groaning. Thank god the shower was fixed. Or not all of us have to take a bath like P.Ramlee in bujang lapuk. We have complained about the heater but it seems that the maintenance took it lightly. Maybe because we only have a few days before our accommodation expires.

Last Friday I was at town. Performing my Asar at the Greyfriars praye hall. There was a tazkirah given by one of the tablighs that I like to share in The Pavements.

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 There was a ship sailing in the seas. The consist of two working sections which is the upper deck and the lower deck. The sailors from the lower deck receive water from the sailors of the upper deck (I realise that sea water can't use for drinking so assume that it is only use for washing).

 One day the sailors of the lower deck decided not to rely from the sailors of the upper for water. They wanted to have their own supply of water and being independent. Without thinking of the consequences the sailors of the lower deck started to make a hole in the ship so that they can get their own supply of water.

Their foolish action caused the whole to sink. All of the sailors from the lower deck and the upper deck suffers.

This story is metaphore, in the Islamic view. Telling that the ship as the Islam that you believe in.  The sailors of the upper and lower deck as an ummah. Each one of them are depended on one another. It is the responsibility of every muslim to remind their muslim brothers what is wrong and what is right. To avoid being selfish just to save one's own skin.

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It reminds me of what I have learn in a school prefect bootcamp at Eco resort a long time ago. That the priciple of 'seorang anggota buat silap satu badan sengsara'. At that time whenever one of us was late for a program or did something wrong. Everyone will be punish, from having to do push ups or spending 3 hours marching in a the camps lake. 

At that time I question the idea of  'punish everyone when one messed up'. I think it is unfair for the people who doesn't do anything wrong. I was 13 at that time.  

After ten years of experiencing the bitter and sweet of life. My view altered, it is more unfair letting your peers fail around you when you can succeed together. Unwilling to be assisted and change is another thing. 

View it as running a marathon. Everyone wants to finish and get the first prize. In the marathon some run fast some run slow. Some had cramps during running had to walk towards the finishing line,  some might even have to crawl. Still all of the runners wants victory even when they know they will end up finishing last. To them finishing the race is a victory. Other runners who were virtuous shout support and motivation to them. Some even run with them until the finish line.

When I participated the Staffs half marathon few months ago. I had cramps and had to convert from running to fast walk. I was going too slow even the old people in the race manage to intercept me. But most of the runners gave me motivational support, they shout to me "run Dennis run! don't stop'. They call me Dennis because I wore a Dennis the menace singlet. Some gave me water and some runs with me. Sometimes I do shout for motivation to other runner who I manage to 'potong'.

    

 I was the 1948 people to reach the finishing line from 1986 participants. I literally didn't train anything for the marathon. I was devastated by the events I went through. But I still compete just to wake me up from being unproductive.

At the starting line, I told myself If I can complete this race, I can surely complete my degree. And Alhamdulillah, I've done it.

WE are no greater.

Remember... the last time you saw a sinner and you pass out your judgement on him within a few minute and only a fracture of his lifetime like you know him, like you've seen his soul? Without any analysis of incident and past history...

Like you have the right to judge wether he hgoes to heaven or hell?

Like you know you're going to heaven?

BUT with the judgement you made for minute there; you just reserved yourself a li'l hell.

We as humans judge the SINS, Let Allah S.W.T. judge the SINNER. As we ourselves might not be any greater.

And tell me who isn't a sinner?

Liver Rupture

One must accept the possibility of one's own death and the uncertainty of life before one can truly appreciates. I said this because I just saw a hepatic rupture operation. One of my ways to lift up my awareness on life and the responsibility that I am carrying.

It is so easy to damage your liver. Being reckless on eating or one shot to ribs is just about it. Once it is damaged I have no idea what will substitute it.

The human body is too fragile, the healthy body you are currently having will not guarantee that it will stay the same in the coming future.

The answer lays in practicing a healthy lifestyle. In terms of spiritual, physical, emotional and social.

Prophet Muhammad s.a.w (pbuh) once said, 'remember five things before five things'. One of them in 'sihat sebelum sakit'.


I am worried about my parents. Ibu always has  stomach pain. From what I understand, it has something to do with her intestines . Whenever she went to DEmc for checkup the doctors just sent her to ward. That's why now she avoids seeing doctors. She was also having trouble with her illness when she visited me recently. She told me not to call 911 when that night I was worried as    . Wondering will she be able to wake up the next day. While Abah has a very high level of diabetes. But he keeps on consuming sugar. Their recent trip to Jordan upsets me. Why, don't they think I can't afford them to pay for their holiday when I have finish studying?
Even worse, what will happen if they need to have a surgery or any financial needs. Will I be able to support them as they were able to support my current studies and living fees.



,one of my ways to express my feelings.

 I am just a little out of the road currently, that's all.



There is a lot of things going in my head now. But I am ok now.  

Improve, adapt, overcome.

Berkat Makes The World Go Round

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A young man once set out to visit a great sage in the town of Mezritch. When he arrived, he asked where to find the man, and was shown to a tiny, decrepit shack at the edge of town. Inside, there was nothing but a broken-down bed and a table full of books, where an old man was studying.
    “Where does the sage live?” he asked the old man.The young man was puzzled.

    “It is I,’’ said the old man. “What is disturbing you so?”
    “I don’t understand. You are a great sage, with so many disciples that your name is known all across the country. It doesn’t seem fitting that you should be living in a room like this. You should be living in a palace.”

    “Where do you live?” the old man asked.
    “I live in a palace, a grand home with magnificent furnishings.”

The young man explained that he was a businessman, traveling twice a year to a large city to buy materials that he brought back and sold to local merchants. The sage asked him where he stayed when he was in the city.

      “I stay in a small room in a small hotel,” he answered.The sage inquires the young man,

     “If someone were to walk into that small room, might they not say,

     ‘Why are you, a wealthy businessman, living in such a small room?’ And you would say, ‘I am only on the road for a short time, so this is all I need. Come to my real home, and you will see that it is entirely different.’

“My friend, the same is here,” the old man continued. “I am also only on the road. This material world is just a road. In my home, too, it is very different. Come to my spiritual home, and you will see that I live in a palace.”

 

(Story taken from Mitzvot charity)

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Most people measure their accomplishments by their bank account. The bigger it is, the better they feel about themselves. Because we put so much energy into earning money, it represents the very energy of life as we see it. 

Some people feel that they and they alone are responsible for their success, that their intelligence and abilities made it so. This is the serious challenge of wealth to not be deceived by your own ego but to remember that it is Allah who gives us the power to become prosperous.

This is not to say that your success is not a result of your efforts. And you must do everything possible to ensure success, not just sit back and wait for money to come your way. But you must acknowledge that it is Allah’s blessing, and not your effort alone, that creates wealth. There is a saying that goes,

Air tidak membasahkan

 tetapi Allah yang

 membasahkan di sisi 

sebab air

Api tidak memanaskan

 tetapi Allah yang

 memanaskan di sisi 

sebab api

(sorry I  preached too long, I can't help it)

Is money a blessing or a curse? 

In my opinion it depends on the person. Honestly I am not good with money. Money talks but mine says 'spend me'. Ibu told me years ago that my brother will be more richer than me. She was right. Because I tend to have the sikap 'tak apelah' when I am spending on things and when someone borrows from me.

 I got that behavior from abah. He doesn't even care about money. Not that  he is reckless and financially illiterate. He teaches physics and most of his money was spent for his class and his students. Once I asked Abah about what will he get for wasting money on his students (I believe that students should print out their own lecture notes and give some money to their teachers instead, 'belanja minum').

He says that he will be very happy if his students understands what they learn from his class. And afterwards apply the knowledge and contribute to the community. That is his satisfaction. Someday I want to be like him. 

I will be tempted to 'belanja' my students just to make them go to my class (Abah did not do this to. It is just my own method of approaching students).

I guess with an ambition like this, I'll never be rich:/ 

Joke of this week (has nothing to do with this post, just random);

Most men are brainless, so you might have to try more than once to find a live one

In all fairness

Sometimes we work really hard but get little and others work little but gets extra. Why? Not fair isn't it.

Well know what? Allah is fair and he has it all planned. Only we decide to look the other way.

We work to get RM5000 but paid RM1500, He will give back the balance of RM3500 with health, friends, family and many more.

You work worth RM1500 but paid RM6000 be sure He will have you claimed back of the RM 4500 through bad health, money wasting family, frequent need of equipment repair and many more.


Pak ali pandu teksi ke Serindit,
      ditengah jalan tejumpa biawak;
Kerja keras pulangnya sedikit,
       kerja senang pulangannya banyak.


Mak Leha menunggu tidak kenal erti penat,
       sambil itu tempahan baju dijahit;
Kerna peluh hidupnya sihat,
       akibat banyak rehat asyik-asyik sakit.

Kak Ros pagi ke petang mengemas,
      intai ke tingkap andai ada jejaka;
Hati yang ikhlas budi sentiasa terbalas,
      tipu muslihat akhirnya ke neraka.


Adik pulang dari sekolah berkayuh,
      nampak jiran sebelah genyit mata;
Jika susah jangan sesekali mengeluh,
       Allah itu adil pasti ada hikmahnya.

Thank you God.

Thank God, the planets don't revolve

In perfect circles round the sun.

But wander oval orbits

Far away in space.

Thank God, the axis of the Earth

Is turning tilted, like a top,

And wobbles as it spins.

Thank God, rivers never flow

In straight efficient lines

From the heights down to the sea,

But crash their way down mountainsides,

Fall over rocky cliffs,

And carve out twisting valleys where they run.

Thank God, Thank God, for all our days

And for every single creature

And each one's singular, quirky ways.

-taken from simple poems

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When you wake up,

clap your hands,

smile

and tell yourself it's gonna be a gonna be a great day...!

Don't Be Afraid To Be A Samaritan

When we do a deed for example, giving my seat to a lady. Honestly I am afraid to give away my seat even though I know deep in my heart it the right thing to do. What I am afraid is what people will say. They must assume that I my intentions were to flirt with the woman.

So most of the good things I want to do must be impromptu, never think of it. Just do it.

Another method is, when you want to do a good deed. Just think of the kindness boomerang. 

Keep in mind too, that there is also the unkindness boomerang. Because what you reap is what you sow. It applies in EVERY ACTION  in life.

The prophet himself said, when you want to do something good, or do the daily prayer, execute it ASAP. If you are tempted to do bad things. Find an excuse to delay the action, until the bad intention goes away.

Kindness Boomerang, Life vest (song; Matisyahu-One day)

Waiting outside the line

You’ll never enjoy your life,
livin' inside the box
You’re so afraid of taking chances,
how you gonna reach the top?

Rules and regulations,
force you to play it safe
Get rid of all the hesitation,
it’s time for you to seize the day

Instead of just sitting around
and looking down on tomorrow
You gotta let your feet off the ground,
the time is now

I’m waiting, waiting, just waiting,
I’m waiting, waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines

Try to have no regrets
even if it’s just tonight
How you gonna walk ahead
if you keep living blind

Stuck in the same position,
you deserve so much more
There’s a whole world around us,
just waiting to be explored

Instead of just sitting around
and looking down on tomorrow
You gotta let your feet off the ground,
the time is now, just let it go

don't wanna have to force you to smile
I’m here to help you notice the rainbow
Cause I know,
What’s in you is out there

I’m waiting, waiting, just waiting,
I’m waiting, waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines


I’m trying to be patient (I’m trying to be patient)
the first step is the hardest (hardest)
I know you can make it,
go ahead and take it

I’m Waiting, waiting, just waiting I’m waiting
I’m waiting, waiting, just waiting
I’m waiting, waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines
Waiting outside the lines

You’ll never enjoy your life
Living inside the box
You’re so afraid of taking chances,
How you gonna reach the top?
Source: http://www.elyricsworld.com/waiting_outside_the_lines_lyrics_greyson_chance.html

Sometimes, we just have to push the boundaries, and there are people waiting, believing in you. Stay strong, presevere- Remember your loved ones!~

WE'LL BE WAITING OUTSIDE THE LINE....! <3

We kissed on the lips, Woohoo!

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wake up, look yourself into the mirror.

SMILE..!

For and to you.

Why? Coz you deserve it

It wasn't an easy decision to decide to wake up and face the world again.  :)

LOVE YOUR PARENTS MORE THAN YOU LOVE YOURSELF. ESPECIALLY YOUR MOTHER.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MNSdNCu2h_c&feature=related

Janganlah menjadi anak derhaka. Sayangi ibu bapa anda  walau teruk macamanapun. Usahalah menjadi anak yang soleh.

To do and Not to do

Once in awhile and every so often, we find ourself conflicted on our decisions and actions. Admit it, you know what I'm saying~ You are trying to make a decision for your group and your brain will come to conflict on what is best for the team and what is the preference for the individuals in the team. Best for the team is going of the box and achieving a reputation and name to be proud of, while what is prefered by individuals is to do the simple and easy one to cater to laziness of individuals.

To Do: walk in your shoes; it IS your life
Not To Do: Trying to live up to other's expectation

To Do: Your best
Not To Do: Other people's best.

To Do: Fight for what is right
Not To Do: Fight just coz you want to

THURSDAY, 23 FEB 2012, STAFFS TIME

That's yesterday. I am in the lab right now, 9.00am. Waiting for Phil to teach me something. But he's not even moving from his table.   Think I just start the experiment by my own.

I felt wiggly wiggly to day. I'm not sure what should I describe my current emotions right now. Rase badan lemah lemah saje. Yesterday at Global Cafe, I didn't finish my dinner. Katherine says that when a man can't finish his meal he must be in love. I replied 'no way, mane ade;p'.

I tend to lie, to hide things, when I lie it turn any situation I'm in into awkward.

Oh, wait. Phil just explained to me that today for lab is to just continue from last session. He explained it earlier in class. And today I came in late:)


dahdah... pg buat kerja.

lead the crowd!

and lead the crowd i shall ;)

don't let ignorance win

maybe, this is the one

YOU'RE PARTICIPATING A RACE, AND YOU'RE OVERTAKING THE 2ND PERSON, WHAT POSITION ARE YOU IN?

honestly, today is the most unproductive day for me. I've spent the whole day in my room. Didn't go out today and I didn't even open any book. I even skip my exercise. Feel so wrong today, I wish I could lie all day in bed. Dreaming that that I'm home. Meeting my beloved parents, meeting runni. Get a job, and start saving some money for kawin.

Sorry I lied, I did go out today. Went for dinner at Mike and Katy's house. Lovely couple they are, the fish, steamed broccoli and mash potatoes were heavenly delicious.

Anyways, it's 0230. I should sleep. zzz.

EXCUSE ME SIR, BUT YOUR PEEING ON MY LEG

Today I have learned a new expression. 'Touche', which pronounces as 'too-shay'. It is used too acknowledge a success of an argument. Or in other words, to admit honorably that " ah.. you've got me there".

So, Runni.. I've read your recent post and yes, .....touche:)

The title has nothing to do with this post. It is a comedy clip I found from youtube that I will put at the end of this post just for laughs. A laugh a day keeps the doctors away.

Today I would like to share a poem that is common to most people, as this is one of the famous poems during high school. It is a nostalgic review for me because it is one of the hardest literature review to understand (at that time), and this is a poem where I can relate to.

Si Tanggang's homecoming

The physical journey that I traverse
Is a journey of the soul, 

Transport of the self from a fatherland 

To a country collected by sight and mind 

The knowledge that sweats from it

Is a stranger’s knowledge,

From one who has learnt to see, think

And choose between The changing realities.

It’s true I have growled at my mother and grandmother

But only after having told of my predicament 

That they have never brought to reason. 

The wife that I began to love in my loneliness,

In the country that alienated me, 

They took to their predecisions.

I have not entirely returned, 

I know,

Having been change by time and place,

Coarsened by problems

Estranged by absence.

But look, I have brought myself home,

Seasoned by confidence,Broadened by land and languages,

I am no longer afraid of the oceans

Or the differences between people

Not easily fooled by words or ideas 

The journey was a loyal teacher

Who was never tardy

In explaining cultures or variousness.

It is true, almost six months I have been away from home. Away from my complacency in life, the way of life that I prefer and away from my families and friends. No more jogging on Sunday morning at Tasek with abah or Izaan, Imanul, and have breakfast at Lontong Klang after exercise. No more accompanying Tok Mak to the Sunday Market at the Stadium Melawati (Now I substitute with Sunday morning car boot sale).

I miss hangouts, picnic with friends at Junjung waterfall, karaoke, hotwater in Baling with the Rnr gang, cycling to Batu Ferringhi with Danial san. Watching movies at the Pacific (berapa kali je pun pegi). I am the kind of 'lepak' person. But not a meaningless lepak, I love activities that involve outdoors. I prefer picnic at the beach rather that karaoke with friends (kalau only with runni I ok aje).  

In Staffs, to counter my boredom of studies. For social life I do join the bible class studies on Thursday night and Arabic class on Friday night. And also on Sunday evening I go to the Global Cafe to join tea party and play chess with Mike. On Wednesdays, I like to join talks and activities carried out by the career center.

Mike reminds me of the late Pak Non, the old timer next to my flat in Penang. I look to them as my grandfathers. I always have grandfathers even back during my time in mrsm Langkawi. I won't forget them. I owe them.

No more copy paste or 'tiru' from colleagues when doing assignment (they take plagiarism very very very seriously here) I have to do on my own. Which means going to the library often and reading a lot and a lot and a lot of textbooks. My lecturers told me to have the mentality of assuming study life as a full time job. Where you work from 8 till 5, probably more, and the Degree as your salary.

 No more 'lewat', 'janji melayu', as I have been scolded sarcastically here (Liverpool trip). They will treat you differently when your late for no reason, they will really relate that to where I come from and say that you are a disgrace to your country:( 

The Mat Salleh here takes punctuality issue very seriously. Especially Germans, I have a German lecturer and he always early in everything. He is the first of all my lecturers to finish marking papers.

No more Taekwondo class with Ustaz Mansur (I miss him and Ummi). But I do attend boxercise class on Tuesdays here in the uni, and recently a kick boxing class on Fridays. I will miss all that once I started working probably on April.

Seems that I really live comfortable here aside from all the activities that I join in Staffs. But don't judge me thinking that I neglect my studies by joining this kind of activities. Yes I am not doing well currently, but not that I do nothing about it.

I believe in the drive that makes a person enthusiastic in whatever their doing. If some people must smoke in order to concentrate during study. Then I have my own methods.

I also believe in intentions of the goal that one is pursuing. From the last paragraph of the poem, is the my true real intention.

Which is, I want to go home. Where there is peace at home. For I will not go home empty handed, Not only with a Degree, Masters, PhD, but with limitless knowledge to share and to contribute to the community, and my religion. Insyaallah.

I'm gonna stop being serious for a the time being, lets just enjoy this clip.

I should change! Maybeee... tomorow? :o]

Sometimes, at times, kadang-kala, 2-kali-2-kala, but MOST dan selalunya we KNOW what's wrong with ourself. But we somehow are able to convince ourself with the excuses that we give ourself~ takpelah bukan selalu nak enjoy, alah esok lah start again. We tell ourself that we are a lazy, we need to work more, kurangkan facebook, we have to do more, usaha lagi kuat dan sewaktu dengannya but we often spend more time convincing ourself that its ok to screw-up pastu end up never overcome our problems.

Sometimes, we promise ourself that things must and will improve- kononya nak ubah la ~,~, then right in the middle of it~ " Hmmm.... I've done this for 3 days, I can afford to cut myself some slack today kan???" *troll face*. Then the same excuse comes up d next day, and the next and so on; untill we realise yang 'some slack' tu dah pun terlalu lama dan we're back at square one- FAIL.

So yeah, why do we do this to ourselves?? But WHYyyy?(#thesyndicateproject @youtube) We torture ourself, mentally, emotionally to go through bad phase, to better, holiday, fail and back at the bad-only more depressed... kan??? Tak tahu lah korang, tapi for me memang konfom depress- rase cam loser gile.

To be honest, even I don't know myself-coz I do it too. I guess its a part of the human nature to be compassionate- konon simpati -,-; of others and sometimes slightly biased more to ourselves?? Lol.What ever it is... We need to stop doing this. Our soul must be singing Christina perri-a thousand years  while waiting for the change its longing for. Wawawa....

Okay2, sorry lost my focus for a while just now. What I was trying to say is.... If we want to improve, we cant just 'know' whats wrong with us, cause that is understood. We must start working to what will and ignore the whispers and temptation of  'cutting ourself some slack' while we're on it, cause if we are willing to give in to your failure it will always be apart of us. And in life, failure is NOT an option, but a sad accident, a horrible fall :(. Which we must accept will happen; but still never an option.

Stop cutting yourself 'some slack'

Cause you're almost there.

~ i KNOW you are XD

THE GENEROUS CORN FARMER

There once was a successful farmer who grew good quality corn.

One day his son ask him and learned something interesting about how he grew it. His son discovered that his father shared his seed of corn with his neighbors.

"Why are you generous enough to share your good seed of corn to our neighbours father?" his son asked.

 "Didn't you know son? The wind picks up pollen from the ripening corn and swirls it from field to field. If my neighbors grow inferior corn, cross-pollination will steadily degrade the quality of my corn. If I am to grow good corn, I must help my neighbors grow good corn." said the farmer.

He is very much aware of the connectedness of life. His corn cannot improve unless his neighbor's corn also improves.

So it is with our lives. 








value of a life is measured by the lives it touches. 


Those who choose to be happy must help others to find happiness, 


for the welfare of each is bound up with the welfare of all.



"if we are to grow good corn, we must help our neighbors grow good corn."






but, what happens if they don't want your help?


well, you haven't ask yet.


 And if they don't want your help, it's maybe because some people who knows that they are in trouble but they don't know what to do, 


too shy or to ego to ask.


-being caring is the hardest thing to do. But it is worth more than gold and diamonds in  the long run. Because Allah pays you.

Nick and his soulmate.  Finally he has found his special someone.


"My wife is coming, and I may not have hands to hold my wife's hand, 
                                                         but I don't need hands to hold her heart. And that's all I wanna hold"

YOU CAN SAVE SOMEONE

You can save someone's life, yes people. Saving people from drowning, saving a kid from being run over by a car, saving a girl from committing suicide.

no,  that's not what I mean.

It's saving someone's life by just acknowledge them . Ask them what worries them and try to help. Encourage them.

'...who cares, not my problem. Your jack, your problem. Not my responsibility. I'm no angel. Mind my own business. Tak mahu jaga tepi kain orang.'

Sometimes I do feel like that. I mean why the hell do I have to care for someone where as I have a lots of problem of my own.  Ignorance is a bliss, selfish at it's best.

But when people get crazy, do stupid things, angry all the time, bad mood.

then we ask. What the hell is their problem?






Anyways, I have this motivational video to share by Nick Vujicic (handsome mat salleh ni).  He talks about how to save people's life. He talks about his purpose in life and how he likes to love people and encourage people.

Whenever I'm down I listen to this vid. Hear a couple of my fav songs and then continue my work. Yes , thats my plan..

I'm not writing this because I'm depressed. Just a little la.

okla, mmg im deppressed skit, but its ok. things gonna work out.


anyways, I just want to know that you look great today, and everything's gonna be ok:)





" Can you forgive those who hurts you, because that's where healing starts.
                          Every time someone puts you down will you make a decision to bring somebody else up?"

The naked chef inspires mua :D

So I'm watching Jamie Oliver's Food Revolution. I watched and realised that if you want to see a change, it has to start from you. Jamie is a known celeb chef and being great with that helped him to change the people to revolutionize and eat healthy food, cos he is a great chef thus people are able to trust his cooking- he also gets to prove it too cos he's great. If you want to see a great world, you gotta start being a great person. This change doesn't need to be directly or at one go. You can start being great step-by-step- do small but great steps. Work one area at a time. One area to another eventually makes the whole area. you are one of those small area which will eventually spread out to the rest of the area- InsyaAllah. :)

So.... I'm gonna start being great. I wanna make a diffrence with the vision of a great life.

fruits for reflection

i was cutting mango for a late night dinner

i was cutting the top and peeling the skin and suddenly it struck me- humans are just like fruits.

 judged and refered by the skin- their look, how one present themselves. Like how you judge i the fruit is ripe, just nice or rotten. Same as humans, we see how they look like, dress up and appearance.

After that is done

The flesh is consumed/ used as nutritions. As for humans; our capabilities and knowledge are used by others and ourselves just like how fruits are evaluated- the best and most nutritious are the most valuable ones.

Then we come to the seed, which we couldn't care less (unless you're a farmer or some fruit gardener). Little do we realise, the seed plays such a big role; like the soul it determines the future. A good seed grows great trees and improve the humans needs and wants. While a bad seed benefits none to anyone, not even itself.
As time passes by a good seed, though no longer a seed, it has changed things and itself for the better- Providing shades to those who are in need of it and bear great delicious and nutritious fruits.
The bad seed might still just be a bad seed and decompose to nothing, or perhaps if its a bad with a litle good seed it grows to a tree that could provide shade. ;)

So are you a bad or a good seed??

Inspiration never permanent

As salam,
Its weird how you can get inspired by appreciating the tiniest event in life. Then even weirder how inspiration disappears with fears and laziness. This is what is happening to, inspired and deninspired. Today, watching tv and drawing, i realise im 22 oredy, its best for me to start being serious and brave enough to grow up making decisions. I hope this time it stays.

Working for thr future for dunia and the heeafter.

The Six: Ways You'll See Your Dad

Staffordshire Half Marathon

On the 25th  March I will be competing the Staffordshire half marathon. I'l be running for a number of charity organization. Such as the disabled people and breast cancer care. No matter what, I must finish the race. Same goes to my life.. must finish the race.

Save you - Simple Plan

Take a breath
I pull myself together
Just another step till I reach the door
You'll never know the way it tears me up inside to see you
I wish that I could tell you something
To take it all away

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there're so many things that I want you to know
I won't give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know

When I hear your voice
Its drowning in a whisper
It's just skin and bones
There's nothing left to take
And no matter what I do I can't make you feel better
If only I could find the answer
To help me understand

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there're so many things that I want you to know
I wont give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know

That if you fall, stumble down
I'll pick you up off the ground
If you lose faith in you
I'll give you strength to pull through
Tell me you won't give up cause I'll be waiting if you fall
Oh you know I'll be there for you

(Ahahaha)
If only I could find the answer
To take it all away

Sometimes i wish i could save you
And there're so many things that I want you to know
I wont give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know
(Oh)
I wish I could save you
I want you to know
(Ohohh)
I wish I could save you (oh)

Last day of final exam in Staffs

Woke up at 8.15am, just in time to perform Subuh prayer. Thanks to Syikin, she called to remind me about exam at 10. First thing to do, brush my teeth and then solat.

Open my window for fresh air, I saw a a lovely couple sitting on a small hill not far from my room. They were looking at the sunrise. That was romantic:o

 Opportunity, took some photo of them. I don't think they saw me:)

Digital systems, I left the exam hall 30minutes early. I'm confident with the paper. All that I've studied last night come out. That day, instead of taking the bus I decided to cycle. about 10minutes of cycling.

Cycling to the exam hall was bitter because it is uphill. But going home is from there is like riding a motorcycle. On my way back, I decided to check out my new jogging route. I have to train by next week to get ready for Sheffield games and Staffs half marathon that will be held on 25 th February.

The scenery was .. breathtaking. Open fields, small farms. I felt like I was in Arau, Perlis reminding me of the  paddy fields. Unfortunately, I didn't bring the camera:(

(anyway, the scenery was kinda like this ones)

I can't wait to jog next week..


Then, I came upon a big factory. So this is Perkins, the one Syikin told me about.

 Perkins specialized in producing diesel engines.
One day I might end up working here, I don't know..

Decided not o head home. Go to town and have my Friday prayer there. While waiting for the time of Jumaat prayer, I wonder around town and do some window shopping at charity shops. I was thinking about buying clothes and cd players. Some items that had made me interested.
I walked past a street basker.

(Can't find a pic of street basker playing flute. Substitute with this chap)

he was playing a flute. Titanic song. Really nice. It goes with my mood at that time.

After solat Jumaat I head home because I promise to skype with the lovely small plum boss.

Can you guess how many items that I bought that day.

I found out lots of good cd's. Keane, Cher, Brimful Asha, Blue all oldschool songs, nice ones.
In my opinion its better to hear songs from cds instead from youtube. Because you will end up busy searching a lot of songs in youtube. and forgot to enjoy the music

I fancy the leather trench coat, I looked like Gambit if I wore it. The price was nice. If Iqa was here she will persuade me to take it.

but


 In the end I didn't buy anything.

I have everything I need.

or maybe because I don't have money:)




Recently, someone has moved from her old house and agreed to share a new house with me..
I was delighted. This is a poetry dedicated for me and my new housemate..

sitting on the steps writing prose

in a time and a place

new and strange

in a house strangely elegant

filled with peace

reminiscent of the east

with stones from greece

two cats live here

they own the house

the male is as wild

as a man will be

his thoughts on escape

and living free

the girl is an innocent

gentle pure

as quiet as a spirit

living near

and i will learn a new way

to be

to live in this house

two cats and me

'what happens when the sun won't rise'

"it will rise"

'I don't trust u'

"it will rise. It will, soon. Trust me"

Im going to London this Saturday. To meet my lovely cousin. Cousin meeting.  Will be back by Sunday.

My train is at 7.30am. Planning to Subuh at town.

....going to sleep, hope she forgives. miss someone. miss her. She has a meeting tommorow. I pray all goes well and all the best for her. 

with all my heart, never gonna stop loving her...

HH 1

I finally decide, that if i want to inspire it means inspiring myself to be a better person, and oddly enough my way to inspire is to reflect as through others and myself. I bet nobody doesn't even give a damn, but I just want to have a place when I'm pissed or sad or empty, there is a place (this blog) where I can read and reflect.

Yesterday, The big boss and the small plump boss had a feud, a disagreement due to different generation, perspective and experience and understanding. And so the small plump boss pissed off because the big boss refused to be open and try to understand things in a different perspective. Small plump boss start acting all pissy and slam doors, drawers, palstic bags (yes that happened) slammed every single thing in sight-evn punched the wall (Internal bleeding-yes!). The small plum boss then open the shower and just sat under it swearing in the mind-like there is another person in the brain running around in an empty space, screaming and hitting and punching and just lets everything loose; sat there shiverring and gritting teeth-untill the body can't take it anymore. Went out of the shower- numb. towel dried, dressed up for bed pulls up the quilt slept. - If you are going to swear and make more sins, might as well sleep; less sins, increase energy and the brain gets to rest.

And life's chronicle of events happens. *Tralalalala..*

Then the big boss met up with a future business partner, the small plump boss after closing the salon, came to join. Bought her favourite ice blended-green tea and joined the conversation. Listen to people's story and experience.

At the end, the small plump boss/I/she realise LEARNING is better when one make it as a SHARING PROCESS rather than 'I'm a big shot and you should learn from me, because I'm WAAAY better than you'. Then, she realised,

life sucks and it will get worse but you just have to get better so that even though when life sucks, you get the upperhand, so that when it sucks you just have to brush it off your shoulder instead of crawling back to where you were.