Saturday, May 12, 2012

For What Is Worth

There is saying that goes, " If a job worth doing, it's worth doing well".

One more day left to prepare for the final paper. After the exam all the notes and formulas will be put away and  stored. Someday maybe my juniors might need it for reference.

The 2 hours exam will prove whether the student had benefit the time given for three months to prepare for the questions in the exam. There is only two outcomes, either success or failure. God is fair.

There can only be one.

Sunday, May 6, 2012

Use The Floor to Move, Strong Base

The current season in staffs is spring. The weather was warm and nice a few days ago. But now it is starting to get cold like in winter. The house heater was not working and everybody was groaning. Thank god the shower was fixed. Or not all of us have to take a bath like P.Ramlee in bujang lapuk. We have complained about the heater but it seems that the maintenance took it lightly. Maybe because we only have a few days before our accommodation expires.

Last Friday I was at town. Performing my Asar at the Greyfriars praye hall. There was a tazkirah given by one of the tablighs that I like to share in The Pavements.

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 There was a ship sailing in the seas. The consist of two working sections which is the upper deck and the lower deck. The sailors from the lower deck receive water from the sailors of the upper deck (I realise that sea water can't use for drinking so assume that it is only use for washing).

 One day the sailors of the lower deck decided not to rely from the sailors of the upper for water. They wanted to have their own supply of water and being independent. Without thinking of the consequences the sailors of the lower deck started to make a hole in the ship so that they can get their own supply of water.

Their foolish action caused the whole to sink. All of the sailors from the lower deck and the upper deck suffers.

This story is metaphore, in the Islamic view. Telling that the ship as the Islam that you believe in.  The sailors of the upper and lower deck as an ummah. Each one of them are depended on one another. It is the responsibility of every muslim to remind their muslim brothers what is wrong and what is right. To avoid being selfish just to save one's own skin.

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It reminds me of what I have learn in a school prefect bootcamp at Eco resort a long time ago. That the priciple of 'seorang anggota buat silap satu badan sengsara'. At that time whenever one of us was late for a program or did something wrong. Everyone will be punish, from having to do push ups or spending 3 hours marching in a the camps lake. 

At that time I question the idea of  'punish everyone when one messed up'. I think it is unfair for the people who doesn't do anything wrong. I was 13 at that time.  

After ten years of experiencing the bitter and sweet of life. My view altered, it is more unfair letting your peers fail around you when you can succeed together. Unwilling to be assisted and change is another thing. 

View it as running a marathon. Everyone wants to finish and get the first prize. In the marathon some run fast some run slow. Some had cramps during running had to walk towards the finishing line,  some might even have to crawl. Still all of the runners wants victory even when they know they will end up finishing last. To them finishing the race is a victory. Other runners who were virtuous shout support and motivation to them. Some even run with them until the finish line.

When I participated the Staffs half marathon few months ago. I had cramps and had to convert from running to fast walk. I was going too slow even the old people in the race manage to intercept me. But most of the runners gave me motivational support, they shout to me "run Dennis run! don't stop'. They call me Dennis because I wore a Dennis the menace singlet. Some gave me water and some runs with me. Sometimes I do shout for motivation to other runner who I manage to 'potong'.
    
 I was the 1948 people to reach the finishing line from 1986 participants. I literally didn't train anything for the marathon. I was devastated by the events I went through. But I still compete just to wake me up from being unproductive.

At the starting line, I told myself If I can complete this race, I can surely complete my degree. And Alhamdulillah, I've done it.


Friday, May 4, 2012

WE are no greater.

Remember... the last time you saw a sinner and you pass out your judgement on him within a few minute and only a fracture of his lifetime like you know him, like you've seen his soul? Without any analysis of incident and past history...
Like you have the right to judge wether he hgoes to heaven or hell?
Like you know you're going to heaven?

BUT with the judgement you made for minute there; you just reserved yourself a li'l hell.

We as humans judge the SINS, Let Allah S.W.T. judge the SINNER. As we ourselves might not be any greater.

And tell me who isn't a sinner?

Thursday, May 3, 2012

Liver Rupture

One must accept the possibility of one's own death and the uncertainty of life before one can truly appreciates. I said this because I just saw a hepatic rupture operation. One of my ways to lift up my awareness on life and the responsibility that I am carrying.

It is so easy to damage your liver. Being reckless on eating or one shot to ribs is just about it. Once it is damaged I have no idea what will substitute it.



The human body is too fragile, the healthy body you are currently having will not guarantee that it will stay the same in the coming future.

The answer lays in practicing a healthy lifestyle. In terms of spiritual, physical, emotional and social.

Prophet Muhammad s.a.w (pbuh) once said, 'remember five things before five things'. One of them in 'sihat sebelum sakit'.


I am worried about my parents. Ibu always has  stomach pain. From what I understand, it has something to do with her intestines . Whenever she went to DEmc for checkup the doctors just sent her to ward. That's why now she avoids seeing doctors. She was also having trouble with her illness when she visited me recently. She told me not to call 911 when that night I was worried as    . Wondering will she be able to wake up the next day. While Abah has a very high level of diabetes. But he keeps on consuming sugar. Their recent trip to Jordan upsets me. Why, don't they think I can't afford them to pay for their holiday when I have finish studying?
Even worse, what will happen if they need to have a surgery or any financial needs. Will I be able to support them as they were able to support my current studies and living fees.



,one of my ways to express my feelings.

 I am just a little out of the road currently, that's all.



There is a lot of things going in my head now. But I am ok now.  

Improve, adapt, overcome.