TAINTED GLORY

2003 until 2010...

I take life for granted made mistakes in the past
Don’t want to harbour so much hate in my heart 

Found my way through dark....



And only by closing my open eyes and taking a chance
I wanna make my family proud

And show those that I love that I ain’t standing round
I hate backing down, hate lashing out
Hate that I hate so much.......what is this hate rant about?

I don’t wanna be this negative person
Pessimistic, perfectionist obsessively working
Always anxiety ridden
I
I need to stop and breathe
Cos in reality there ain’t nothing stopping me be what I wanna be

I'ma go it alone, on my own rowing this boat, 

No one to throw me a rope
Feel like I'm lost at sea
Tryna make waves, on this endless expanse of monotony
And I gotta be what I wanna be

Telling my lungs not to breathe
Inspirations an island just beyond my reach
Chances are few and far between
On an ocean with nowhere to plant my seeds
And you reap what you sow
It’s getting dark, I keep an eye on my beacon of hope
Hope in every vein and capillary
My message in a bottle is my name on the pages of history
I got two ores
One named determination and the others name is ability




This me ain't the way that I wanna be
Now I know its the way that I gotta be
I've had my heart broken before
Another persons actions controlling my emotions and thought

Love is a battlefield. I'm a soldier at war

People saying 'I don't know him no more'
The old me's dead and gone, I got away with murdering him
So my split personality holding the fort
Now I gotta look deep
my older said 'don't regret anything that makes you smile that's how it should be'
And so I took heed 

Now I live my life, a different guy but miss the nights I could sleep
Thinking isn't it funny
I used to be in control but I'm driven by women and money
In this eternal search for a pot of gold
Where I've lost my soul and my hearts gotten cold