time to change

Inspired, yes?? :)

you can always be who you want to!

yes even in studies dear, stay inspired and always be willful to perspire for it.

the motivator

here's a person whom i admire.
great at heart and and dashing as ever.

Haha.. well I'm just writing this down because I miss this person, he's miles and miles away and its been almost 5months we've been parted by distance.

I miss feeling so inferior while jogging cause he's so fit- so i push myself to live healthier too. Miss the competition. I miss hearing his speech of motivation and quotes of great man and 3rd rate unknown movies. The humbleness of such a gigantic heart can never fail to make one admire and smile. I'm not saying he's perfect- he has few things to work on- and he's working on it, or so he says :D

I miss most- to know and feel he's near and close to me, though not next door, but at least reachable- cheap local calls and texts. Lol.

People always say you always under appreciate what they got, and regret not appreciatin it when its gone. Well he's almost half gone with part of my heart, so i kinda know what they mean. I used to be like 'blaaah' shouldn't make such a big issue out of him, NOW, I'm missin this guy like crazeeey....

If you know someone who motivates you, make you do things you neve would've (for the right reason) and opposite gender, GRAB'EM! 

BELACAN SEDAP DIMAKAN:)

Even Mat Salleh learn to speak in malay. It motivates me to improve myself to speak and write in english well.



Anyway I like belacan, but not to spicy. My stomach is sensitive to spicy foods:(



(even though I was born in Malaca)

animation education ;)

only blind if you choose to

NO EXCUSES MOTIVATION

the advice we give

We give advice not because we are superior but because we know,

People who give them should not necessarily mean they practice it

but more importantly- realize that it is the right thing to do.

piloting your life

I've been quiet for quite awhile haven't I? :D
Ngeeee...

I miss blabbing. Here it goes...

"...because YOU are the pilot of your own life." ~suite life of zack & cody
So true, but most of the time, words easier said than done.

You might be the pilot, but you can't control the weather, the nature of events, that is up to the big boss up there to decide when is the rain, when and where the thunder gonna strike, how hard the wind blows and also if Allah gonna give you a pass and let things go smooth sailing for you. And Allah does not decide just because he finds it amusing- it's not sims.

what I am saying is that sometimes we have planned our lives-have it all thought out, then we do our best to make sure it is executed as we want it to be, analyse the pros & cons an all. But no matter how good the plan is, if Allah decides its not gonna happen- it won't, however if Allah decides its going to happen it will- despite  bad and unfortunate events keep interfering along the way and all seems grey,it will happen and might turn up better than you expected.

With Allah's decision you might succeed, perhaps fail, you might get it done halfway, you just end up forgetting to do it at all what ever Allah decides- success or failure, hard or easy, believe me it is the BEST for us even if it is hard to swallow. Because everything happens for a reason. It rains cause trees need to drink, the sun shines cause animals we need to dry our clothes, wind blows to create circulation and so much more things happens with great reasons we know, and some we know not.

So lead your life, be a great pilot- understand that life is your plane which its destination is the afterlife zone and lands either in Jannah or Hell. It's destination will only be available according to how you make the calls of judging your flight.

When things get hard and everything seems impossible, here's a word from an important person of mine(with some editing):

Allah makes you go through bad times so that when you prevail, you become a better person. :)

FEELING DOWN?

Feeling down, stress,

Felt like going through hell..

Wanna give up?

Watch this vid,

It's about something you already know,

WARNING : it has quite a lot to do with man's ego and manly thing in it. Well, ignore that, take the

motivation part, huhu:)

No light at the end of the tunnel?

there's an exit in everything baby, except the afterlife.

You want something. Go get it. Period

Happy hunting.

Raymond's principle about life: 

'It's to short to enjoy to the fullest,

Every week just survive to keep my head above water,

And if better things come, I take it,

If not I'm still gonna be happy.'

I like his quote. I don't want to be rich. I want to enjoy life, pay the bills and get healthy.

And I want to teach :)

If it is to be

If him n i are meant to be. I dream of:
-hearing him reading the Al-Quran
-him waking me up for subuh
-lead me for my prayers
-guide me to jannah
-remind me of Allah

And i hope to always able be there whenever he needs me.

Menunggu

I went to car-boot sale today. There's lot of good items, and they are so cheap. I wish I could buy all:)


Came across an old guitar. I had always want to play guitar. Used to play everyday with Dr.Z during my Diploma in Penang.

If I can get myself one then I can practice a song to play for her.


But to think about it,

with my assignments and projects,

and also the time needed to prepare for my coming classes.

Damn,.... I don't have time...



But if there's a will..

there's  a way.



I'll buy one,

Well, maybe another day.



I dedicate this song to you sayang...

Nasi Lemak!!!

Yes, its Coffee and Pool again turning the kitchen into chaos, proving the girls who underestimated the cooking power of us guys;b

Hariri wants to be Jack the Ripper, nevermind. forget him...

Ni la nasi lemak yang tapi tk letak , apetu... serai eh.. emm, tk tau. yang aku  

aku tau letak santan je. 

siva tak tahan, pedih mata lepas potong bawang.. first time la katakan..

mari memasak, bujang style.

kalau ada soalan di minda kata "coffee mana, dia tak tolong ke?"

ehhh,,... aku tolong jugak. Tolong sediakan tempat makan. pastu... tolong makan, :p

ala, tadi masa diarang nak masak aku pg campus, ada kelas agama. kalau tk aku tolong masak skali..

-Sambal kering sebab tk cukup blend

-Ikan bilis kuning sebab pakai minyak recycle, ada kunyit. nak saving la kan..

tomato ganti timun

haa... ni la nasi lemak. ni dish aku, pakai mest tin. rasa macam askar. Untuk ingatkan aku cita2 aku masa lepas spm nak masuk UPNM tapi ibu tak kasi.

From right: Coffee, Manjit, Hariri, Pool, (Siva is tking picture)

BON APPETITE!

You give me the wings to fly
You are the clear blue sky
I'm floating so free, so high
Falling with grace - for you and I
You give me the wings to fly

Sometimes...

you can't always just make the lemonades... :D

combustible lemon babeyh!

I know, it's ridiculous but sometimes, we really need Cave Johnson's attitude in dealing things we face. :D

Never Too Late

sometimes,

we wake up only to find out that we cause disappointments to others and ourselves.

we regret, we wish to forget,

pressuring ourselves of how stupid we were

and

at some point we think we're hopeless

well, if we continue walking along that path, we might actually end up hopeless

when we do mistakes, errors and accidents its always for a reason

to learn, realize, repair and make life better. 

Can't see it yet? :)

we tumbled, we slipped and we fell head first few times;

and yet we survive.

We stood back up, at that point,  we are winners my dear. It was never about the fall but it had always been about if that fallen person has the guts to get up, brush up the dirt on their shoulder and still continue the walk- hearts high heads still screwed on right.

Realizing a mistake now and regret is much better than dying and never be able to 'realize' it was a mistakes, cos it would too late.

Yes,

what matters is that we got up & recovered with our heart still at its rightful place.

note:Niat salah, hidup tetap loser dunia mahupun akhirat

Nasi Ayam in United Kingdom

Recently we had cooked nasi ayam for dinner. It was after our trip to stoke.

I had a very upset tummy that day. It's not diarrhea, but the feeling of angin inside. Maybe its the bread and milk that I've consume.

Maybe it needs time for my body to adapt though.

Even when I'm sick I still help in the kitchen.

But mostly my contribution is to tolong makan... huhu..

Anyways, I know how to make a nasi ayam. Simple saja..


Next week... nasi lemak!!!

Ayam tepung jagung

Today is my last packet of maggi.

I'm also running out of perencah..


For dinner I cooked nasi goreng cina with 3 drumsticks, and egg (Yes, I'm very hungry)


I can cook,... but not that good.

You know what..

I kiss better than I cook:)








Wish you were here

:p

taken from nailah87 blog

Suatu hari, sebelum si ayah menutup matanya buat selama-lamanya, dia memanggil anak-anaknya untuk memberi amanat yang terakhir. Si Ayah ini merupakan seorang ahli perniagaan yang berjaya. Beliau memesan kepada anak-anaknya: "Wahai anak-anakku, ayahmu ingin memesan 2 perkara sebagai bekalan kamu semua. 


1) Jangan menagih hutang pada yang berhutang. 


2) Jangan biarkan sinaran matahari memancar padamu semasa keluar bekerja dan pulang".



Setelah sekian lamanya ayah mereka ini meninggal dunia, prestasi perniagaan si adik semakin hari semakin merosot manakalah lain pulak yang berlaku pada si abang, perniagaan abang semakin hari semakin maju dan berkembang. Melihat perkara itu, emak mereka pergi kepada si adik dan bertanyakan kenapa perniagaannya semakin merosot. Si adik menjawab, Beliau menuruti pesanan ayahnya sebelum ayahnya meninggal.
Kata si Adik "Ayah meninggalkan 2 pesanan buatku. 


1) Jangan menangih hutang pada yang berhutang. Justeru apabila ada yang membeli secara hutang, aku tidak memintak mereka membayarnya semula, lama kelamaan modalku semakin berkurang. 


2) Jangan biarkan sinaran matahari memancar padamu semasa keluar dan pulang ke rumah. Untuk menunaikan amanah ayah, aku terpaksa ke pejabat dengan menggunakan teksi dan banyak duitku dibelanjakan untuk membayar tambang teksi". Ibu mendengar cerita si adik dengan penuh simpati. 












Selepas itu, ibu mereka bertanyakan kepada si abang pulak. Apa yang dilakukannya sehingga berjaya. Si Abang menjawab "Aku hanya menuruti wasiat dari ayah". Hairan si ibu mendengarnya. "Aik, adik kamu pun menjawab sedemikian. Tapi bagaimana kamu boleh berjaya" bisik si ibu sendirian. Tanya si Ibu kepada si abang: "Apakah wasiat ayahmu wahai anakku?". "2 wasiat yang ayah tinggalkan untuk kami. 


1) Jangan menangih hutang pada yang berhutang. Justeru aku tidak membenarkan hutang dalam urusan perniagaanku. 


2) Jangan biarkan sinaran matahari memancar pada wajahku semasa keluar dan pulang dari tempat kerja. Justeru aku keluar rumah sebelum matahari terbit dan pulang ke rumah selepas matahari terbenam. Hal ini membuatkan pelanggan-pelangganku mengetahui masa perniagaanku dan perniagaanku semakin laris kerana tempoh perniagaanku lebih panjang berbanding kedai-kedai lain". Wajah ibu tersenyum mendengar cerita si abang.

Kesimpulan dari cerita ini :
1- Komitmen. Sesuatu perkerjaan itu memerlukan komitmen yang jitu demi memperolehi kejayaan yang memuaskan. Pekerja yang komited akan sanggup berkorban untuk menyiapkan tugasannya walaupun dalam tempoh yang lama. Harus komited sehingga tugasan tersebut selesai.

2- Bijaksana. Meseg yang diterima adalah sama, tetapi hasilnya akan menjadi berbeza bergantung kepada sejauh mana penerimaan meseg tersebut. Jika kita ambil ia sebagai positif, pasti positiflah hasilnya dan begitulah sebaliknya

you raised me up- TO MORE THAN I CAN BE

When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.

There is no life - no life without its hunger;
Each restless heart beats so imperfectly;
But when you come and I am filled with wonder,
Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.

Sometimes, we forget the people who had been there for us through  

hi and low. Tears and laughter. 

Cheers to the lovely people who had and will be the shoulders;

Giving us the chance to see more than what we can be.

<3

:)

Story about Casey and Moses

F.N.T

I'm surprised that you've never been told before
That you're lovely
And you're perfect
And that somebody wants you
I'm surprised that you've never been told before
That you're priceless
Yeah, you're precious
Even when you are not new




Fascinating new thing

-ost: 10 things i hate bout u

UNWRITTEN

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

Just live your life,

because IT'S YOUR LIFE,

you can start today, today... ... where your book begins.

the future is still unwritten :)

here comes the sun, the beatles

Here comes the sun, here comes the sun,
and I say it's all right

Little darling, it's been a long cold lonely winter
Little darling, it feels like years since it's been here
Here comes the sun, here comes the sun
and I say it's all right

Little darling, the smiles returning to the faces
Little darling, it seems like years since it's been here
Here comes the sun, here comes the sun
and I say it's all right

Sun, sun, sun, here it comes...
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes...
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes...
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes...
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes...

Little darling, I feel that ice is slowly melting
Little darling, it seems like years since it's been clear
Here comes the sun, here comes the sun,
and I say it's all right
It's all right 

it is the late Heath Ledger's fav song.

why i keep posting bout him, cos i just wtached:

10 things I hate about you

NoteToSyakrr: you should watch it dear, nice movie. Might learn a thing or two. You'd hate the 2 main characters though. :P

Big Money

In this world.

There are people who express love with money,

maybe it is wrong,

but it is still love..

remember

lesson to be learnt:

when you're in-charge, when you're responsible

you'll have to

cross some people

shout at them

swear(maybe)

push them where they don't want to

push some wrong buttons

be hated

but

always

remember to take sometime to tell them what they did well.

LET ME TELL U SOMTHING U ALREADY KNOW

The world ain’t all sunshine and rainbow. 

It’s a very mean and nasty place and I don’t care how tough you are ….

... It will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it.


You, me or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life.

But it ain’t about how hard you hit. 

It ‘s about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward. 

How much you can take and keep moving forward. 

That’s how winning is done.






If you know how much you’re worth, 

then go out there and get what you ‘re worth. 

But you gotta be willing to take the hits, and not pointing fingers saying you ain’t where you wanna be

 because of him or her or anybody. 

Cowards do that...

... and that ain't you, 

youre better than that.


Until you start believing in yourself, you ain’t gonna have a life.

From these quotes, that's why I...

1) Still take up the same course for my degree, even though previously i did poorly. It is about personal agenda. I believe I can do better because I have everything, I have the strength, opportunity and spirit to finish this fight gallantly.

2) Still loyal this one flower. Because I know how much that flower worth. And I'm gonna go out there and get it, but first I must prove to that flower how much I am worth. I shall......

after I've my degree. 

Going back home to her as a Very Able Gentleman.

TARGET IN LIFE

It was my first to experience Friday prayers in Staffs. It was held in the Beaconside Gym Studio. It was a  simple Friday prayer, short khutbah, and the jemaah is very small.

I can't see any Malaysians besides the three of us . But I manage to have a short chat with a local who is a muslim. Most of the jemaah there are from staffs, maybe some of them would be my lecturers.

We were early to arrive for the Friday prayers. I was told to azan but I refuse. Giving excuse as I was not confident at the time. Next time I'll be doing azan. Back home I must practice. During the khutbah, I failed to sleep as I did for previous friday prayers (to be honest).

The khutbah text was in english, but the imam was an Arab. He has problem to speak clearly. I had to concentrate in order to understand the khutbah. Nevertheless, the message of the khutbah was interesting.


"I once asked my son, what is his target in life?
My son says that he wanted a playstation 3.
Then i asked my son again, is this really your target in life? you should change your goal into a more beneficial ambition and long term.
After giving it a thought...
My son changed his mind and decided to be a football player. He promised that once he succeeded, he wanted to give me lots of money..

It doesn't matter what you're going to be when you grow up. Just don't forget your roots and love your religion."

"I had once asked a friend what is his ambition in life.
He says it's heaven.
I said, other than heaven?
The answer is still heaven.
I asked him again but the answer is still the same."

"Now I understand, that in everything you do, you must target for heaven.
Because it will remind you not to stray away from the right path.
Whatever ambition that we are trying to aim.
For example,....


Getting a certificate,

Excellent career,

Getting rich,

Beautiful wife,

Big and happy family..
and life,

But never ever forget. The ultimate aim must always be heaven. And Insyaalah everything will be fine.

never favourable

And suddenly i see him again

reminds me

of how death will not always come when its favourable
he was in the middle of something

life is unexpected
he was 28

it can be accidental
it was due to accidental intoxication

God is always fair, He gives when He takes
He was going through hell, perhaps God decides that this man of great heart- he has suffered enough pain :)

This guy reminds me to

live life to the fullest,

value life

always do great stuff when ever i get the chance

surround myself with love because when i leave, that is the best thing i can leave behind

one must always be ready to say goodbye for every flick of his/her eye

NoteToHim: Hope to see you later, in heaven, maybe not 'you' perhaps a projection of you :)

you can lie to me, and i can lie to you

 but at the end

we both know there isn't any truth for us anymore

except us of liars.

What & If

WARNING: a rip off from "Letters To Juliet"

"... what and if are 2 words as non threatening as 2 words can be, but put them together side by side and they have the power to wound you for the rest of your life- What if. What if?" The Clip

EVERYONE SHOULD HAVE A 'WHAT IF' MOMENT

So yeah in life there are a lot of things going on- the good and  the bad always come hand in hand.

For every hardship, great things will emerge, for every 'too-good-to-be-true' is a risk to forget of what is true.

What I'm trying to put here, for every events of our life we  should always have a 'what if' moment before making a decision.

What if this is test? What if the rumors were true? What if I had just helped the old man?

What if God have bigger plans for us?

ANSWERING THE 'WHAT IF'

But don't stop there, get the answer... get the confirmation, for that is the whole purpose of a  'what if moment', having a 'what if' inside of you for an extended period of time will kill you-inside and quietly.

Hanging on a what if question is like hanging onto a rope which you don't know what is waiting at neither of its end, and instead of finding out, you drag it along with you everywhere, though sometimes forgotten, it will be a burden your knapsack from time to time almost haunting. Get an answer, every person has the right to get his/ her 'what if' answered.

So friends, family, acquaintances and strangers please always give it a moment and ask:

What If? & Get the answer :)

Note: In respect of anonymousity of visitors, i have used God instead of Allah.

TAINTED GLORY

2003 until 2010...

I take life for granted made mistakes in the past
Don’t want to harbour so much hate in my heart 

Found my way through dark....



And only by closing my open eyes and taking a chance
I wanna make my family proud

And show those that I love that I ain’t standing round
I hate backing down, hate lashing out
Hate that I hate so much.......what is this hate rant about?

I don’t wanna be this negative person
Pessimistic, perfectionist obsessively working
Always anxiety ridden
I
I need to stop and breathe
Cos in reality there ain’t nothing stopping me be what I wanna be

I'ma go it alone, on my own rowing this boat, 

No one to throw me a rope
Feel like I'm lost at sea
Tryna make waves, on this endless expanse of monotony
And I gotta be what I wanna be

Telling my lungs not to breathe
Inspirations an island just beyond my reach
Chances are few and far between
On an ocean with nowhere to plant my seeds
And you reap what you sow
It’s getting dark, I keep an eye on my beacon of hope
Hope in every vein and capillary
My message in a bottle is my name on the pages of history
I got two ores
One named determination and the others name is ability




This me ain't the way that I wanna be
Now I know its the way that I gotta be
I've had my heart broken before
Another persons actions controlling my emotions and thought

Love is a battlefield. I'm a soldier at war

People saying 'I don't know him no more'
The old me's dead and gone, I got away with murdering him
So my split personality holding the fort
Now I gotta look deep
my older said 'don't regret anything that makes you smile that's how it should be'
And so I took heed 

Now I live my life, a different guy but miss the nights I could sleep
Thinking isn't it funny
I used to be in control but I'm driven by women and money
In this eternal search for a pot of gold
Where I've lost my soul and my hearts gotten cold

WITH NOBODY ELSE AROUND

If you are at first lonely, be patient.

If you've not been alone much, or if when you were and you were not okay with it, then just wait. 

You’ll find it's fine to be alone once you’re embracing it. 

We can start with the acceptable places, the bathroom, the coffee shop, the library, where you can stall and read the paper, where you can get your caffeine fix and sit and stay there.

 Where you can browse the stacks and smell the books, you're not supposed to talk much anyway so it’s safe there. 

There is also the gym, if you’re shy, you can hang out with yourself and mirrors, you can put headphones in. 

There’s public transportation, we all gotta go places. 

And there’s prayer and mediation, no one will think less if your hanging with your breath, seeking peace and salvation. 

Start simple. 

Things you may have previously avoided, based on avoid being lonely principles. 

The lunch counter, where you will be surrounded by “chow downers”, employees who only have an hour and their spouses work across town, and so they, like you, will be alone. 

Resist the urge to hang out with your cell phone. 

When you are comfortable with “eat lunch and run”, take yourself out for dinner to a restaurant with linen and silverware. 

You’re no less intriguing a person when you are eating solo desert and cleaning the whipped cream from the dish with your finger. 

In fact, some people at full tables will wish they were where you were. 

Go to the movies where it’s dark and soothing, alone in your seat midst fleeting community. 

And then take yourself out dancing, to a club where no one knows you, stand on the outside of the floor until the lights convince you more and more and the music shows you. 

Dance like no ones watching because they are probably not. And if they are, assume it is with best human intentions. 

The way bodies move, genuinely move to beats, after-all, is gorgeous and affecting. 

Dance till you’re sweating. 

And beads of perspiration remind you of life’s best things. 

Down your back, like a book of blessings. 

Go to the woods alone, and the trees and squirrels will watch for you. 

Go to an unfamiliar city, 

roam the streets, 

they are always statues to talk to, 

and benches made for sitting give strangers a shared existence if only for a minute, 

these moments can be so uplifting and the conversation you get in by sitting alone on benches, 

might have never happened had you not been there by yourself.

Society is afraid of alone though. 

Like lonely hearts are wasting away in basements. 

Like people must have problems if after a while no one is dating them. 

But lonely is a freedom that breathes easy and weightless, and lonely is healing if you make it. 

You can stand swarmed by groups and mobs and hands with your partner, 

look both further and farther in the endless quest for company.

 But no one is in your head. 

And by the time you translate your thoughts, 

an essence of them may be lost or perhaps it is just kept. 

Perhaps in the interest of loving oneself, 

perhaps all those sappy slogans from pre-school over to high school groaning, 

are tokens for holding the lonely at bay. 

'Cause if you’re happy in your head, and solitude is blessed, and alone is okay.

It’s okay if no one believes like you, 

all experiences unique, 

no one has the same synapses can’t think like you, 

this be me. 

It keeps things interesting; life’s magic things are rich. 

And it doesn’t mean you aren’t connected, 

the community is not present, 

just take the perspective you get from being one person in one head and feel the effects of it. 

Take silence and respect it, 

if you have an art that needs practice stop neglecting it, 

if your family doesn’t get you or a religious sect is not meant for you, 

don’t obsess about it. 

You could be, in an instant, surrounded if you need it, 

if your heart is bleeding, make the best of it, 

there is heat in freezing. 

Be a testament.

--->> How to be lonely <<--- 

a poem by Tanya Davis

In freezing there's heat..

Sometimes I feel lonely and Sometimes I feel merry. One of the criteria s of being human..

But I don't agree that nothing can make me happy, I just believe that I have to find what makes me happy.

They say being alone makes oneself anti-social. 

But sometimes when you spend time with yourself, you really get to know and love yourself better..

If your friends or family doesn't care bout you. It won't mean a thing. What matters is that you care about yourself.

EXPLORE...

if you're in an unfamiliar territory

PASSION...

in what you love to do. Such as playing music, drawing, practicing martial arts. It will make you feel good.

Lonely, stress, 

It's only feelings. We choose to feel that way because we allow it to.. 

Its okay to be alone, but feeling lonely is just an excuse.

Normally people who feels lonely wants to not be seen. I have a good video showing how not to be seen..