K.A.R.I.S.M.A 77

I am aware that I am socially awkward. Hard to smile. And stubborn at times.
But I have charisma, steadfast and I am loyal. I was a platoon leader for Alpha company when I served in the national service. I am the right guy you want on your team to survive any doomsday apocalypse.

My motto is , to dream big, always be grateful and never give up.

Alhamdulillah on July the 9th I finally completed my mission, not as perfect as I have promised but I get the job done.

I always remember that someone who likes to call me a loser. Always motivates me to keep going on and be a winner.

Now I am just a technician. In five years time, operation restaurant tasek indah will be my major success.

The fate of a person, the family, the country, the world and the universe.

As important as the general elections are, two days after the historical event in Malaysia will be a turning point to this particular person. The main character of the great book, his own book. Life is a test, and there are always decisions to be made. Good or bad, right or wrong, there is no time for regret.

Life is the journey of baby sea turtles trying to survive the migration of 8000miles to the ocean. Left to fend for themselves as they go through obstacles on the beach and in the ocean. Many will face death before reaching destination, such is the rule of life.
A quote from a strong willed commander, (where she quoted it from Al-Baqarah verse:286)

"Allah does not charge a soul except [with that within] its capacity. It will have [the consequence of] what [good] it has gained, and it will bear [the consequence of] what [evil] it has earned".


To all young baby sea turtles who are preparing to exit the beach and into the ocean. Broken bones can be mended, Can broken hearts too? In specific where hearts broken before the time you find Mr. Right. Yes you can. I promise you, in 5, 6 more years if you look back you'll smile for the adventures you've encounter in your youth, at it's peak. For other exciting and challenging adventures will keep busy. All the bitterness will end when you conceive a child. For 9 to 10 months it will be painful and hard. But it is a war to end all wars. All the victories in your life is nothing compared to your firstborn child.

Broken hearts can be mended. It is possible and can be done.

But, you can never mend a mother's broken heart, and a man's broken ambition.

let go and choose a better one

Every so often we come a cross a moment where we ask ourselves, had we done the right choice? Was that a mistake?

I find myself coming across those moments too often that I am just tired of it. So really really tired of it that i realize  we are not suppose to regret nor criticize our past, instead its about making it a better decision now, as in right this moment. So what if its a mistake, so what if it was great choice, it is the past that you have 'been there, done that' and you cant go back and undo nor can you re-do. Its great to look back to remind ourselves but nothing more. Plus,you gotta admit some mistakes are necessary to make our lives more interesting  I mean we get wiser with time. - or not;totally a personal choice.

When things happen, its fate, never 'just a coincidence; it always has a reason or reasons, so let the past be your fate, and allow a better future to take place, make your fate happen as a result better reasons.

He broke your heart, so let it be. But do not let your future 'Mr.Right' go just because you had to go on wandering about your past- where did I go wrong, was I too emotional? Clingy?- STOP THAT. All that has already been decided by fate.

So you messed up at your last office, stop visiting them and reminisce how you could have done better. Make a better choice now, lookout for incoming tests!

In short, people make mistake, the difference is whether he or she is gonna just sit there and be sorry for him or herself or stand up and say, 'right this moment, better choices are happening!' and actually does it.

Has anything you've done make your life better..

It's 5:40 am and in about one minute I'm going to watch the sun come up.
I don't know if I've ever done that. Anyway, we're going to try to pick things up, and start over.
It won't be easy but we're all together again.
And I feel good. I'm not sure if this paper is what you wanted, if I hit the social significance or whatever you're looking for. But, for what it's worth, thanks a lot.

So I guess this is where I tell you what I learned.
My conclusion, right?

Well, my conclusion is: hate is baggage.
Life's too short to be pissed off all the time.
It's just not worth it.
Derek says it's always good to end a paper with a quote.
Says someone else has already said it best so if you can't top it, steal from them and go out strong.
So I picked a guy I thought you'd like.

"We are not enemies, but friends.
We must not be enemies.
Though passion may have strained, it must not break our bonds of affection.
The mystic cords of memory will swell when again touched, as they surely will be,
by the better angels of our nature."

-Danny's conclusion,  American history X.

Sunrise taken from a ferry to Pangkalan Raja Tun Uda ferry terminal.

Kerja and amal same ah?

What does 'kerja' means in arabic?

It is 'amal', where I learned recently from a motivation talk by Ustaz Apandi, in a seminar organised by Etiqa takaful. Every little thing we do is a work, no matter what the intentions are.

Oh, there is so much to share, from what I have heard from the talk. The most important point in the seminar,  a tip given from En. Danial was that in life. One must have a purpose, or 'matlamat hidup'. What ever one wishes in life. Write, plan in down stick it on your work station, in your car , or wherever. So that everyday one will be always know what his or her life ambition are. Auto suggestion in the mind, say it out loud everyday, 'masin mulut' and you'll get it.

Happens to me when I wish for a sega 16-bit. I remember that I was 10 years old. Accompanied ibu to Stirling for her PhD. Before I sleep, staring at the ceiling and keep repeating that I want a sega 16-bit. The next day we went to car boot sale and I got the game. For half the price, we managed to get away with the price before the real owner shows up. Alhamdulillah.

It was a long time ago. The console was nowhere to be found, probably was given to someone else. I missed those sega games. Even though the graphic and  the gameplay is nowhere near today gaming standards, some things can't be replaced. All those sweet memories.


Back to what I want to share from the seminar, the importance of having 'matlamat hidup' is like this. Imagine  the genie from Aladin inquire you three wishes. What are your wishes? It happens impromptu. Obscure goals will lead you to something else, whilst too late and the genie leaves you. Such is the significance of having a clear goal in life.

Source: 9gag

Westerners don't like wet bums

What makes a winner.

A winner is someone who can turn a bad situation, find any advantages and willing to take the blows and survive. A winner can work in stress situations, doesn't blame other but struggles to find a solution and survives.

Adapt, improvise, overcome

Papaaa...

moral of the story: Spare the child... or is it?? :D

Brendan Conlon

Two days ago I watched this movie on Astro. It is called ‘Warrior’. Arrived home at 2330, everyone in the house was sleeping. Heated nasi goreng cooked by Tok Mak and microwaved some mashmallows ibu bought from Jordan. I Was very hungry as I skip dinner that day. Turn on the tv..

‘Warrior’ is a fighting movie, based on the popular combat sport UFC. Played by Tom Hardy from ‘Inception’.  My first impression that it was another ‘Neverbackdown’ flick. But Warrior was more than that. It depicts the struggle of two brothers who disagree with each other and both of them hate their father so much because of their father's past abusive behaviour. The only thing that can bring their family together was in the ring. 

My opinion of 'Neverbackdown' is about a teenager finally finds his cure to overcome his anger towards life. 'Warrior' is about Brendan Conlon’s fight to ensure his family has a home and fight to get his brother and father back. I prefer 'Warrior', because of the main character Brendan Conlon who is not only a great fighter.He is also physics teacher who ensures the his class is exciting. Plus he is loving father and a responsible husband. 

Warrior is an inspiring movie. The character Brendan Conlon’s struggle to overcome the problem he has in his life has lifted my spirits. My favourite quote from this flick is when Frank Campana told Brendan during the scene where Brendan was fighting Tommy. 

‘You don't knock him out, you don't have a home’ 

Must watch this movie.

My new gym motivation. Gonna have Tom Hardy's traps.

Dreams

Mimpi itu indah tetapi hanya kekal mimpi jika kita tidak ber-aksi. Sometimes we tell ourselves that we want to this and be that, we will do this and do that; always wanting to achieve great things. However we fail to follow up our great dreams with greatactions. Sering menunda, always side-tracked, selalu beralasan dan forever scared with the big step.

I too am guilty of this self deception, and I have this additional problem of disliking making a decision by myself, ALWAYS always have to hear a 2nd opinion. Selalu apabila bermimpi aku bersemangat tetapi datangnya masalah keluarga menyekat aku bingung dan lupakan mimpi dan idaman.

Waiting for the day I can work hard, play hard and pray harder. and I don't mind having the day to have actually settled down with a partner for life and partner for business....

Coffeshop of my own, InsyaAllah it will happen. :)

Semak hubungan kita

Chill Lesson

Love how this song would give the impression of a bad-ass song, instead its a song bout talking bout a lot of  life lessons-e.g: tak guna bawak pisau ke peraduan menembak.

Kongsi kongsi mari bicara kongsi pendapat dan juga idea.

Masuk kongsi tiada keluar

Biar kongsi jadi kongsi

Kita duduk diam

#1

Sehijau 

           Warna 

                      Daun

When I was in high school I remember two of my favorite malay literature. I will always remember my bahasa melayu teacher, sad to say that I forgot her name. She was strict, but kind.

My two favorite malay literature was 'Kasut' and 'Diari seorang pengawas'. Both of them are in the anthology 'Sehijau warna daun'.

Push Through The Pain Because Giving Up Hurts More

They say that every morning in Africa, 

a gazelle wakes up, 

he knows he must run faster than the fastest lion or he will be killed. 

Every morning in africa a lion wakes up, 

he knows he must outrun the slowest gazelle or he will starved to death.

It doesn't matter whether you be the lion or the gazelle.

When the sun comes up you better be running

My motivation for jogging. 

Always think that someone who is busier than you is running 

right now.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

Even though the greeting came a little late, nevertheless I would like to say happy birthday for for Runni and Coffee which is on the 29th and the 30th, of May.

And May it remind us that for every year that had past, a lot of lessons were learned. Where a lesson learned is a lesson earned. I would like to mention a quote from Robert Southey; 

'Live as long as you may, for the first twenty years are the longest half of your life'.

So live life at the fullest. Make do of everything you have. Enjoy the up and down thrill of this roller coaster ride and never forget the responsibility as a muslim at the same time.

The last part is where I honestly always forget.

Last but not least, a random birthday greeting. (it made me smile:)

 

past-future

The quote that has the biggest impact in my life. :)

Characteristics of a Single Phase Thyristor Bridge Converter

8 JUNE 2012

Its Friday today, will remind myself that there is a Jumaat prayer this afternoon. It was raining, drizzly rain and windy that day. Having a little headache probably because I had my head exposed to the rain. I was wondering what causes the headache. It is because of the sudden change of temperature. Usually I will wash my hair to avoid getting the headache. It was a tip I learned when I was young from my TokMak. It works on me, I believe there is a scientific explanation for that. 

 During the khutbah, the khatib was talking about munafikun (hypocrasy), and a couple of things I couldn't remember. My mind was in a half conscious state at that time. The khutbah that day is really directed on me. It is as if Allah had purposely make me hear about the topic . Most of the time I talk the talk, but fail to walk the walk. In summary, I lie to myself. 

Except when a gun points at my head, or any similar situations. Desperate situations. That is why now I had my watch was set 30 minutes early. And so far it works when I had appointments.

The last speech from the khutbah is; 

'never let your money, your wife, your children and your busy life distract you from reading the Quran and remembering Allah'.

I think that is all I can remember from the khutbah today. Must bring my notepad and take some notes next week:) 

And today someone's ummi had passed away. I think I know that guy, he was doing his Phd here. His mom had come visiting him from Iraq. Innalillah. Al-fatihah to his mom. The solat jenazah was done at the Stafford prayer hall at the town center. We did the solat ghaib after the Jumaat Friday prayer.

When the time comes, no one can stop it. Same thing goes with opportunity. 

I remember a good friend told me, 'time waits for no men'.  

For What Is Worth

There is saying that goes, " If a job worth doing, it's worth doing well".

One more day left to prepare for the final paper. After the exam all the notes and formulas will be put away and  stored. Someday maybe my juniors might need it for reference.

The 2 hours exam will prove whether the student had benefit the time given for three months to prepare for the questions in the exam. There is only two outcomes, either success or failure. God is fair.

There can only be one.

Use The Floor to Move, Strong Base

The current season in staffs is spring. The weather was warm and nice a few days ago. But now it is starting to get cold like in winter. The house heater was not working and everybody was groaning. Thank god the shower was fixed. Or not all of us have to take a bath like P.Ramlee in bujang lapuk. We have complained about the heater but it seems that the maintenance took it lightly. Maybe because we only have a few days before our accommodation expires.

Last Friday I was at town. Performing my Asar at the Greyfriars praye hall. There was a tazkirah given by one of the tablighs that I like to share in The Pavements.

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 There was a ship sailing in the seas. The consist of two working sections which is the upper deck and the lower deck. The sailors from the lower deck receive water from the sailors of the upper deck (I realise that sea water can't use for drinking so assume that it is only use for washing).

 One day the sailors of the lower deck decided not to rely from the sailors of the upper for water. They wanted to have their own supply of water and being independent. Without thinking of the consequences the sailors of the lower deck started to make a hole in the ship so that they can get their own supply of water.

Their foolish action caused the whole to sink. All of the sailors from the lower deck and the upper deck suffers.

This story is metaphore, in the Islamic view. Telling that the ship as the Islam that you believe in.  The sailors of the upper and lower deck as an ummah. Each one of them are depended on one another. It is the responsibility of every muslim to remind their muslim brothers what is wrong and what is right. To avoid being selfish just to save one's own skin.

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It reminds me of what I have learn in a school prefect bootcamp at Eco resort a long time ago. That the priciple of 'seorang anggota buat silap satu badan sengsara'. At that time whenever one of us was late for a program or did something wrong. Everyone will be punish, from having to do push ups or spending 3 hours marching in a the camps lake. 

At that time I question the idea of  'punish everyone when one messed up'. I think it is unfair for the people who doesn't do anything wrong. I was 13 at that time.  

After ten years of experiencing the bitter and sweet of life. My view altered, it is more unfair letting your peers fail around you when you can succeed together. Unwilling to be assisted and change is another thing. 

View it as running a marathon. Everyone wants to finish and get the first prize. In the marathon some run fast some run slow. Some had cramps during running had to walk towards the finishing line,  some might even have to crawl. Still all of the runners wants victory even when they know they will end up finishing last. To them finishing the race is a victory. Other runners who were virtuous shout support and motivation to them. Some even run with them until the finish line.

When I participated the Staffs half marathon few months ago. I had cramps and had to convert from running to fast walk. I was going too slow even the old people in the race manage to intercept me. But most of the runners gave me motivational support, they shout to me "run Dennis run! don't stop'. They call me Dennis because I wore a Dennis the menace singlet. Some gave me water and some runs with me. Sometimes I do shout for motivation to other runner who I manage to 'potong'.

    

 I was the 1948 people to reach the finishing line from 1986 participants. I literally didn't train anything for the marathon. I was devastated by the events I went through. But I still compete just to wake me up from being unproductive.

At the starting line, I told myself If I can complete this race, I can surely complete my degree. And Alhamdulillah, I've done it.